Pride

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

First of all, I have to say that I am a prideful person. I sometimes deem myself better than the others. I might still be doing this without notice and I really do despise myself for doing it. Who am I to be prideful in the sight of Allah S.W.T? My heart was rust. I want to be able to fix it. Ya Allah, help me in becoming a better person. Guide me and cleanse my heart. I pray to be a modest person and not judging of others.

In trying to find meaningful cures, I stumbled upon a website that teaches Islamic morals:

http://www.momin.com/urdu/Books/Islamic+Morals-7.html 

I also found a website of another Muslim, who had the same problem as me:

http://www.simplemuslim.com/2009/07/dangers-of-pride-and-arrogance.html 

Masya Allah. We are not alone in this world. Someone else might be having the same problem I have. We are all experiencing the same troubles. This is how Allah brings us together.

Rasulullah S.A.W "Say, if you love Allah, then follow me, Allah will love you and forgive your sins. And Allah is Most Forgiving, Most Merciful." [Al-Qur'an 3:31]

Music and Sports

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Music and sports... they're two things that I feel will drift me apart from fully embracing Islam but I'm still in learning process. I for one, like post-hardcore music and these kinds of music will definitely consume my thoughts and beliefs. They never really affected me but letting myself in the bliss of the sounds makes me feel like I'm sinning. Sports-wise... I ran the other day without any tudung/hijab and I actually felt guilty. One step from the house without covering my aurat will lead my father one step closer to Hell and it makes me insecure. What am I suppose to achieve?

These doubts of mine.. Am I ready to give up a million other habits of mine for Allah? Lately I've been scared of the news around the world; of wars and rebellions. Humans are already in chaos which means the end is closer. Some people are still living with their own usual teenage drama without a bother of these issues. The bigger picture.

I'm just confused. What am I, as an Islamic youth, suppose to do for the world?

Eid Mubarak

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

It has been a while since I last updated. Guess what I was caught up with? Eid celebrations- and school!

Eid Mubarak! Or in my native language, Selamat Hari Raya! Maaf zahir dan batin. I do hope you will forgive me of my wrongdoings in the past and the present. All of it, I deeply apologize for. What I do know is that it is better to ask for forgiveness even if the person hesitates to forgive. Everyone is different but in the end, everyone returns to Allah S.W.T.

Masya Allah. It has been great to see both close and distant relatives during Eid. I used to text with people on the phone when we went to relatives’ houses but Alhamdulillah, this year I put my phone safely in my bag and was able to start conversations with uncles/aunties/cousins. I figured this is the time where I should get to know the family better.

Although my Eid is cut short with the starting of school on the 6^th day, some of my friends are still conducting Open Houses and I am able to knit good relations with them.

For everything, Alhamdulillah.