Greetings my dear brothers and sisters! It has been a while. Why is it that when I am on the editing page I get writer's block but when I'm away from my laptop all these ideas keep coming in. But here I go! Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
The future... is a hard thing to think of. I am now in search of finding the right path towards the future and I pray everyday, that Allah S.W.T will lead me to the right one. Amin. A Level is over and done with... and this break is only temporary. How will I be able to spend my 6 months freedom to decide my future? My very own future. I cannot depend on opinions of others.. but I've heard people's opinions too and it helped me a bit in choosing my own path. What I can do now is pray and have faith.
I recently find myself having problems giving advises to people I am close with because I was once the girl who rarely prays and when I talk with them I give different kinds of advises, positive but.. worldly. Nowadays whenever people tell their problems to me, I still listen but.. I itch to say "Pray to Allah. Your solution is there." but I never could.. Because I know they would judge me. Isn't that sad and cowardly of me? Take a situation when they tell me about relationship problems. How they love someone with all their heart and their loved one is all they could think about. I used to tell them to go out and enjoy different kinds of activities.. something along those lines but now.... I feel like telling them "Remember Allah. He's always there for you." I guess I'm still pathetic. Because I don't want them to stay away from me I refrain from telling what should be told. I do not know what I should do.
Two years back I used to chill out from afternoon until midnight at different places and different people. Now two years later whenever I go to places and bump into those people, my heart aches.. how they are still.. the same. It's just that we are youths of an Islamic country. I want everyone to strive for the true path. How do I initiate a change in my brothers and sisters?
I now understand that the daily five prayers are truly the foundation of faith. It is the second pillar of Islam that we should obey. Without it, we are lost, disconnected from Allah S.W.T. I had a conversation with a friend the other day, and I have always been meaning to get her to perform her prayers but I never knew how to start because at that point of the conversation, things always get weird and uncomfortable. Some people, I notice, tend to stray away from religious conversations. When I finally said, "Start praying." her answer is "When I'm ready." I used to say the same thing - that one day I will start to pray on my own will and Alhamdulillah I finally came to it. But now that I've come to it, I realised another thing.. time is not on our side. What if.. the time when we are ready never comes because Nauzubillah, Allah takes away our life? And I never want that to happen to my family and friends... because I love them so much I want them to enter Jannah. Yes it definitely sucks when we are forced to pray because our heart is not in it but.. isn't that in itself the devil's call? To lure you away from the right path?
What I want is just for everyone to start praying no matter if our heart isn't in it yet because once we start praying, Insya Allah, Allah S.W.T will enlighten our soul. I truly believe that with prayers, come a change.
