Lump of Flesh

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Dearest sisters and brothers,

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah. Sitting in the Information Commons, overlooking the land of Sheffield from a distance.. I realise how vast the land that Allah gave us. It goes beyond our limited sight. Imagine looking over at the sea, we do not know what is beyond the horizon. Allah Jalla.. Jalaluhu.

Yesterday, I attended a QC Outing with my fellow BruSheff sisters at the Botanical Garden. It was amazing to see such a number of attendees. Allah really is The Best Planner. One you cannot deny. In nature we recited the Quran, in nature we ponder upon His words, in nature we play games for His sake and in nature we bonded for His sake. And only to Him we return.

I realise...

I have forgotten.

Forgotten how I once was.

Forgotten that I was once too a sinner.

And I still am.

And it is important for me to look back.

So I can remind myself..

I was once shameful.

I watched over other hearts around me and I know..

It was never the physical appearance.

It was never the judgement.

It was never the family background.

The only thing that matters is our heart. People's heart.

In da'wah, we badly want people to change and we forced them into the halal and haram. But we forgot, the revelations in Makkah during the earliest stages of Islam were all about akidah. Fixing the heart; that lump of flesh which commands the whole body. We forgot, once people strongly have faith in Allah, love Him and wants to seek His blessings, then it becomes easier for people to accept His rulings in the Quran.

Just like how I once was.

And shamely, I have forgotten.

How weak and futile we humans are..

Ya Waduud,

I need You.